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What I’m Letting Go Of This Year
This week is my birthday. I’ve decided that as a present to myself, I’m giving up two things: negative self-talk and worrying about others’ expectations of me.
I talk negatively to myself constantly. I have for as long as I can remember. I know it’s not serving me well in any capacity, but the habit is really hard to break. I figure that if I don’t make a conscious effort to do it now, I never will. And I realized that’s a shame, because I’m a pretty neat person. I’ve recently started making some other changes and shifts in my life, and I like where I’m going. Eliminating my negative self-talk is a huge step in that direction.
As for others’ expectations of me, well, that’s just more pressure on myself that I’m willing to let go of. I do my best at everything I am committed to. If that doesn’t meet with someone’s expectations, oh well. It’s not my problem, it’s theirs.
I guess in this day and age, you’d call it not giving a f***. I’m turing 53, and I realize that I have no more f***s to give. Don’t get me wrong, that doesn’t mean that I’m giving up or won’t do my absolute best at any task assigned to me (or that I willingly take on). It just means that if I do my best, and it’s not good enough for someone else, I really don’t care. And I shouldn’t care. I’ve done my best, and that’s good enough for me.
Happy Birthday to me.
